Thursday, December 30, 2004

Resolutions

It's what everyone does at this time of year. With the new year brings new hope, new goals and new propects. I have never been one to be different from this. Always looking for something new and bold to wish and conquer. This year wil be a bit different as it will be a time where I'm gonna aim to let go.

Now, most of you reading this know me and have known my past and while it may stem from certain events, this is more an attempt to fix the big picture.

My favourite movie is and has always been the Princess Bride. It's an epic story about a fairy tale land where good battles evil and in the end, true love prevails. It's something I've always wanted for myself and something to share with others. So much so that in the past, I've pushed so hard (believing I was fighting for an ultimate sense of happiness) that I've just created awkward and tense situations.

So my resolution? I think I'm gonna let that part of me take a rest for a while. Quit pushing so hard trying to realize something that may not even exist, except for in movies. The best part about this is that it will allow me to focus energy back into real life where things actually count.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

A long awaited update

Holy Smokes! Days just zoom by through the holidays. Somehow X-mas is over and it's already boxing day. Hopefully, everyone has scored some awesome holiday deals and will have a story about how SICKLY busy the mall is today.

This time last week, I was getting back from the club instructor course which was sweet. There were eight dans present each day and about ten or so dark blue and aboves. It was awesome training aside from the fact that I'm now entitled to open my own club!!!! I was also fortunate enough to train with Benjo once again and was reminded of why it was I was intimidated of him. None the less it was still good to see him and felt very privileged to be there when he got his hakama.

Things concluded and from there at which point made the journey home. I was very tired after enduring the weekend of training and classroom teaching and just went to bed directly after dinner. I think I slept thirteen hours that night but it was well worth it as I woke up brand new the next morning.

Monday and Tuesday I spent cleaning up the house and visiting family. I have come to the conlusion that after about an hour of conversation that the subject of a movie should be brought up as it ties up the void of nothing to do quite nicely.

Wednesday, I picked up Sparxx and we were off to visit Thumper! His place is a palace. He and J scored huge on that deal because it's gorgeous. Definately gonna have to make another visit someday.
The events of the day consisted of having a delicious thai curry dish for lunch, watching jitsu video, catching a few movies and just chillin. Overall good times.

Thursday was one nutty day. I was orginally suppose to have lunch with Fin after he got into K-town and then head out at about four in the afternoon. Needless to say the weather changed those plans. Fin's connecting flight to K-town was cancelled and the traffic in TO was crazy so plans to head home were delayed. However things picked up from there. McM and myself watched Alien vs. Predator (after a short power outage hiatus) and did some x-mas shopping at the LCBO for various wines and scotches. After concluding this, we were informed that Fin had decided to catch a bus from the airport and it was arriving at seven. I took a nap for an hour and awoke an hour later to head of to pick up the bloke. We got there a bit early and thus decided to get coffee at Timmy's. This was definately a good move as it was FREEZING outside at this point and I was falling asleep pretty damn quickly. Eventually we got Fin and headed over to the Fin mansion for dinner. We had a delicious pork roast and some potato thing which was also excellent. After that we hit up some beiruit and family guy. The evening concluded with a trip the McDics for some cheeseburgers. It was at this juncture where one of the best pieces of knowledge came to my attention. When ordering a cheeseburger, you can ask for it to be dressed like a Mac. This Jr Mac is delicious and makes for more Mac goodness through future weeks. The night ended shortly after as Fin was dead tired as were the rest of us.

Drove home Christmas Eve Day morning and arrived home midday. The rest of the day was spent cleaning and wrapping gifts (which takes time if you want to do it well). Though I've decided that it's not realy worth the time only for someone to rip into it the next day. Thus, I will only wrap items well if they'll stay wrapped for a solid week. That way everyone can enjoy a quality wrapping job.

X-mas day came and went. Usual stuff happend. Had breakfast, open gifts, and had dinner with the family. The best gift, hands down, had to be an 80s retro tee with Sonic the Hedgehog on it. I'll definately be sporting that come new years time. There is one gift I recieved which is somewhat questionable which is an italian charm bracelet. My mother gave it to me with a 'Love Mom' charm and an 'Allergy alert' charm so it makes sense to wear it but I'm not quite sure whether guys can get away with that type of thing. Comments on this would be appreciated so I can figure out what to do with it.

My dad purchased a new 26" television at the Best Buy Boxing day sale. I was going to go with him to help him acquire it but decided to sleep instead. He was none the less still sucessful and got the last one. I returned to the gym today for the first time in a week long hiatus and will continue to hit it hard from now on (as everyone likes to point out that I've put on weight since thanksgiving).

I'm planning on heading back to K-town on friday for a little New Year's Bash and so I can get back into school mode. Thus is you have nothing to do that night, get in touch with me and we'll jam.


Saturday, December 18, 2004

On my way

Well Folks,

Somehow its the christmas holidays already and I'm getting ready to leave in about 30 min or so. I have a short stop in Peterborough before hand though for a weekend Club Instructor course. It definately gonna be awesome as its open to dark blue and above which means there is gonna be some fun training. I'll also get to see a lot of the faces that I hanv't seen in a while which will also be awesome.

I'm home after that with a few family visits to make when I get there on monday and tuesday. Nothing like going back to your roots and seeing the various expressions on peoples faces when they say "jiu what?".

After that I'll be picking up Sparxx for a run through Brighton and back to Kingston to see Fin!!!!!! I havn't seen that guy in a while and am looking forward to it. Then back home for the rest of the holiday. Definately looking forward to it.


Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Topping Perfection

I was going to post this before but held out until now not to spoil the subject of my blog for Noobies like me who love Lord of the Rings. You should have seen it by now so if I spoil something, tough!

My favourite scene from Return of the King is bar none when the Rohirrim ride to Minas Tirith to the aid of Gondor. Every scene is perfect. The dialogue, the shots and music all creates an emotion which overwhelmed me. It represents so much in terms of virtue. Courage, bravery, nobility, loyalty, strength and I could go on. The scene is so powerful that I can't count how many times I've watched it and just shuttered. I didn't think it could get any better, but it did.

The original scene leading into the entrance is Gandalf leading the Gondorian soldiers, encouraging them to be brave as they are clearly losing against the forces of Mordor. It shows Gandalf with the bold expression, "Fight, Fight til the very last man. Fight for all your lives". It is here the Rohirrim horn blows and we cut to exellence.

The extended edition leads in differently. That scene is shown but instead of cutting away, it moves a little past with Pip and Gandalf off to save Faramir. Enter the witch king and his pure display of evil. Without ruining too much, the scene ends with Gandalf beat, staff shattered and the witch king ready to do away with him. Gandalf is without question the symbol for goodness in the movie and having him beat says scores for the story as the forces of evil have seemingly defeated good. However, this is where we hear the horn of the Rohirrim, acknowledging that good will not fall so easily and from there we cue to perfection. Simply awesome.

That alone is worth the price of the DVD and all the time I spend watching it. It's just wonderful, simply put. It's reasons like this that Peter Jackson is a genius and a genuine artist and deserves all the acclaim he has recieved.

Holy Smokes

Well ladies and gentlemen, it seems as though things are getting stir crazy in this neck of the woods. Everyone's blogging with something to say that results in 20 million comments. I'm not exempt from this as I realize I've said a few things that have got peoples attention. To get away from this, I think I'll stay away from serious talk for a little bit.


Tuesday, December 14, 2004

From one step to the next

Sparxx is comming back for X-mas this year and is per usual with me I was ready to break out all the bells and whistles for her, making it memorable as only I can. The only problem with this is that I was recently reminded by McM what happend last time I decided to follow this path.

(Rewind here)

About a year and a bit ago I fall for Sparxx. Not a huge problem as I've had crushes before and can deal with them like a big boy. Aside from this, there's another guy who she wants to be with. She's an adult though and can make her own decisions. Things move on this way until November when certain incidents happen letting me know that feelings of equal (or greater?) magnitude are felt by the other party. Problem is, she's still with the other guy.

Cue biggest drama of the year. I decide that its time to be bold and make a stand for the one girl I've ever wanted. How did I choose to do this? By purchasing the one perfect x-mas gift that made the most sense to give her. (This gift shall be referred to as The Gift). The only thing holding me back was the immense cost which would end up setting me back until April of that month. McM catches wind of my plans and scolds me on how ridiculous this is. Fin thinks the idea is brilliant and fully supports a fight for the girl by this course. In the end I make the purchase and decide to be balls out about this thing.

It's delayed in shipping time and ends up delayed past x-mas. To me this seems like a sign and I'm deciding whether this is the appropriate action. In somewhat of a twist of fate though, during a very huge lag phase in Sparxx's relationship, The Gift arrives. At this point it seems like all the stars had aligned and I figure its time. I end up giving it to her and we spend part of the night together discussing things. School gets in the way though and cuts things short. Not five days removed though, I find out (from a third party) that things have been sorted out on the other side and that she's going with the other guy. Nothing has ever twisted me up inside as that night. Nothing.

The big kick though is that The Gift was never returned (which all third parties agreed it should have been given her decision). In the end, I agree, no matter how much I cared for her.

(Fade away from flashback)
She's back now for all of two days and all I want to do if forget about this and have the time of my life with her. Not too sure if that's gonna happen though because it still stings. As I mentioned before, I want to just forget about it but is it the type of thing you should forget. McM will say no and others will remain silent. This puzzle is a million fold the size of the last I just put together but I have to put it together fast. An entry for another day.

Noobs

For those who are new, Fish is different than Sparxx. Just thought I'd make that clear.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Puzzling through the pieces

From this point forward, nicknames and alias will be used to protect the innocent.

So stranger things have happend. This past friday, after what seems like it should have happend so long ago, actually happend; McM and Fish have acutally gotten together. So I'm suppose to be ecstatic, correct? Well I wasn't until I figured things out.

Saturday, I find out by the smile on McM's face after Fish shows up the previous night. So I figure things have gone well and I'm happy as this was suppose to happen a long time ago. However slowly a bit of distain starts to come over me and lingers for the weekend. It took me a little while to figure out why, but have finally reasoned things out.

Me and Fish have been friends for a long time. There was a long period though where friendship faded away because she had a Noob for a boyfriend and had to deal with his issues for so long that her social life dwindled. Then comes the breakup which liberates her from the shackles and her social life begins to flower again. However things are still difficult for her and so enters me. For the last month so, we'd been hanging out more while she shot the shit and for this little while I felt like our friendship was going back to where it was. Aside from this, I also felt like a bit of a hero as my help was needed and I was actually able to help.

Which brings me to now. It's time to hang up my belt and sash as she's got someone else to take care of her. I know it's okay because I molded McM from the strongest brown fiber. However, it's not easy to make the realization that your not needed anymore, but it happens. So for the two of you who will read this, I'm genuinely happy for you guys but it will take some time for things to settle in my head.

So the pieces finally fit. The hardest is admitting when you've lost. Other chances will come though and soon I'll be able to pick up my sash and belt again. Until then...

But the Drama dosn't end there. Zout still has to decide whether its time to forgive (in the holiday spirit) Sparxx for said incidents last year or whether its still warrented to be bitter.

Friday, December 10, 2004

On a serious note

Well, we're just shortly two weeks away from christmas and the rest of the holiday seasonand this holiday, I consider myself more fortunate than I have in past few years. A couple of days ago the statistic came to my attention that, each year, one million children die of starvation. All too quickly it occured to me that this christmas season I had more comming to me than I had ever thought. Not only do I have gift of going home to a family, a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in but all the extras that we hold as givens and take for granted.

Now this isn't a rant about how each of us should be going out of our way to help others. Instead just a reflection that we settle into our everyday livestyles always getting and yet always wanting more. I'm guilty of it myself and always think someone owes me something. But what hit me is that when so many are starving, I've already got a whole hell of a lot going for me.

So come this christmas season, I'm gonna take a little more time to reflect on how fortunate I am that I'll have a christmas dinner, be able to sing a few carols with friends and sit in front of the fire. Why? Because some people would kill to have any of those things and I am lucky enough to have on a regular basis. I've never been a religious man, but its time to start being more thankful for what I do have.

So for those of you who actually spend some time reading this and you notice Zout with some 'gay apparel', now you know why. And while I may not see everyone I'd like to this holiday, my thoughts will likely drift over to each of you. And if you in turn should have a thought my way, I'd wish that you remember how lucky you are to have what others were not so privilieged enough to have this time of year.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

It's called sarcasm

Well, no seems to get sarcasm these days (or at least I think they don't). Of course I don't think everyone got a blog before I did as people having been writing blogs since the dawn of man. Of course in those days they were actually called pre-blog or simply put journals. Naturally, everyone is crazy and thought that I was serious. Stop being crazy.

X-mas is creeping up very fast and I guess before I know it will have come and gone. Thus if I wish you a merry x-mas way before the 25th or even after, its because I'm silly and will likely forget the day of.

It's not too hard to tell that I'm a little off the wall today as school is driving me mad. The material seems to get more boring as we go along and all I want to do is train and wish for x-mas holidays. I think I've zoned out at least three or four times today and its only been about three hours of class. Only seven days left though. Thank God.

I once again have to start thinking of witty original gifts to get for everyone so that on the day of shopping I may purchase them all in one quick swoop. Notice the logic here. Analyze individual, think of a gift, confirm that it is good and then purchase it. I'd advise against going shopping first yet it seems to be what everyone does. So goes life.

Matt's had two cups of coffee and now I'm going crazy.

Sunday, December 05, 2004

So everyone has a blog now

Well, it's official, I'm an icon. I have recently come to find out that after starting my own blog serveral weeks ago and making a big deal about it, others have decided to follow suit and get their own blog. I am the king.

Speaking of Kings, I recently downloaded a copy of the extended edition and watched it. Man, it was fantastic. The added scenes just add so much more to the story line and while others may argue it removes from the drama, I would say that a deeper storyline makes for a bigger payoff when speaking in terms of frodo saving middle earth and destroying the ring.

There's two more weeks left of school before the holidays and for once in my life I'm actually looking forward to spending time with people I care about over the holidays and not getting things. It's almost like I've grown up or something. This dosn't mean that people shouldn't get me anything. It just means I'm looking forward to seeing people than getting gifts; but I still want them.

One week removed from the brown grading and it still hasn't set in that I can now start my own club and am entitled to Haks. It a responsability that I fully accept and look forward to having my own jitsuka but it still seems like yesterday when I started out.

Matt had two cups of coffee. He's Crazy.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Test tommorrow

Well its 10pm and here I am studying for a test which will likely be easier than I imagine. Oh well, better to be overprepared than under prepared. LOTK: ROTK EE came out online and hopefully I"ll be done downloading that by tommorrow morning so that I can watch it after this silly test. Then on to the x-ray dinner. Hopefully I can break this creepy guy stigma that I think is going around as I think some of the females might have found my flirtatious ways overly friendly at the beginning of the year and decided to shaft me. Is it just me? It could be but for now I'll place the blame on them because it can't just be me. The guys in the classroom and myself get along fine. This weekend will be the first quiet one in a while and I'm looking forward to something a little downbeat so I can catch up on sleep. Mmmm, sleep.